the Lord has been showing me some pretty crazy awesome things latley..and that makes me excited...because its been a while.

something H U G E is about to happen...i can feel it..we're standing on the edge of something big. Lets jump in fully armed and loaded with the word and love of Christ to set this world on fire for Him!

www.picturetrail.com/macaroni4 <~~ a few ski pictures.

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the Lord really opened my eyes to something last night.

we can say all we want that if we went back we would change the way we handled certain situations we regret. but the reality is....we wouldnt. We all put ourselves into vulerable situations and fall into temptations at some point in our lives regardless of what it might be. The minute we fall we should of known our vulnerablitlies yes, but we cant say at that point in our lives we would of done it differently because the way in which we did act was the way the Lord knew we would act and he planned our life according to that dicision. Anyway, the point i was getting at was if we were to say we would have handled things differently we are giving ourselves way to much credit. because it is in those times where we fall that we gain the most knowledge to prevent from further falling. yes we should learn from out past mistakes but our past mistakes are just that...past mistakes meaning theyre in the past but they happend so we cant say we would have done it differently at that time in our lives.

im pretty sure i just babbled and made NO sense what so ever, BUT the Lord has really opened my eyes to some things i cant even explain sometimes, hah.  : )

--spread the love. <3

im done with complaining.

 im done with blaming others for my lack of faith...or my lack of growth. Life is SO much more than that. i just need to open my OWN eyes and open a trusting hand to let Him lead me through it.

Life is so wonderful right now. Despite the HORRIBLE bleh's thrown at me daily, i have far to many things to smile about. I have an amazing job in which i help others, crazy awesome best friends (april- you could never be replaced...rachel- no words can describe how blessed i am to call you my best friend...summer-i dont care how far we drift, things always remain the same) i have a wonderful boyfriend who Christ shines so boldy through and treats me so much better than i ever have before. Loving parents who would do anything for me. Although school is eating my lunch right now I can still be thankful for the A's and B's I have. A brother who i would do anything for because i love him that much and nothing could or ever will change that. AMAZING leaders/rolemodels whom i LOVE so much! (Jacob, Greg, Mark, Claire, Alyssa, Sadie, Sean., Cole Grammling--i cant just say cole, hah) and theres so much more...

so you would think with all of these wonderful blessings i would have no reason to complain right?

even tho im retarded and STILL complain with all of these wonderfuls...one thing differs from everything i previously listed...HE STILL LOVES ME REGARDLESS.

...and if you ask why, i would have no answer.

life is so beautiful <3

                  - -it has been 18 wonderful years... : )- -

i dont even know where to begin to thank all of you for everything you have ever done for me.

love you all. <3

you once were the only thing to make me smile. what changed? my heart? my motives? my priorities? my heart was once filled completley and then some because of your endless love and gracious hand. you once held me as tears of joy streamed down my face for hours..you once were the cause of every smile, every laugh.....everything.

i know you never leave.i know you are right there, right behind me. so why did i turn around. i could easily turn right back around to find your arms wide open. willing. but i feel far to undeserving.

GRANT ME THE WILLING SPIRIT TO SUSTAIN ME!!!!!! Pslam 51:12 and grant me the power to turn around and SPRINT right back into your arms. to remain. content. because you ARE the only thing that can fill me till overflowing. PLEASE remind my heart!!!

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